That about sums up my mood for the past week.
We found out a few weeks ago that our landlord was not renewing our current lease so he can short sell the house we are living in. Normally that would have been fine, it is his house and all, however, we cannot seem to find another place to live. Not to mention the timing. As if TTC wasn’t stressful and expensive enough, now we have to come up with moving and deposit money too?
As for this cycle, it has been very easy so far, except trying not to pack on the pounds. I have been on the BCP’s for about a week and a half now, no side effects to report except some bloating. I have also been really trying to watch what I eat. I am overweight and have been my whole life. Not exactly truck weighing station or cut you out of the house kind of fat, but I could stand to lose at least 50-60lbs. Knowing how this could affect my IVF and fertility scares me but I don’t know how to be any other way. The plus side is that I have not had any medical problems directly due to my weight. No high blood pressure, diabetes, or PCOS. Just general discomfort and the ill fitted jeans problem (but don’t all women suffer from that?) I also had a total thyroidectomy, but that was due to Hyperthyroidism. I’ve been trying to maintain my thyroid levels with medication since the surgery and it hasn’t always been easy, especially when weight fluctuates, but for now it’s okay.
So while I would have loved to drop a bunch of weight pre-pregnancy, I have tried and tried and do not want to put our dreams of having a baby off any longer. Plus, I think it’s better to start trying young and overweight then wait until I am skinny and older. I’ve been reading a lot of stories, blogs, and posts, which have led me to believe even overweight women have a good chance of getting pregnant with the right treatment.
Still, even if I am not trying to lose weight, I would at the minimum like to maintain my current size. The last thing I want when I finally get my BFP, is to develop GD or something worse. That is probably why there are so many TTC food do’s & don’ts.
No sushi, tuna, white grains, sugar, soda, spicy food, caffeine, chocolate, motrin Apparently NOTHING is safe to eat while TTC! I’ve heard everything from mercury in fish being harmful, to caffeine causing uterine contractions. That makes sense but I think it is mostly about staying healthy and trying to not pile on weight from the meds….and stress. People seem to gain a ton of weight from all these hormones. What I can’t understand is if 9 billion women get preggo everyday and 3% of those women are smoking crack and slugging down a 6 pack of coke every hour, why can’t I have a maki roll or snickers bar while trying to have my baby? My only guess is that if we are consciously trying to get pregnant, we should do everything we can to stay healthy. Not complaining, just venting….and having sugar withdraw.
Because I have not completely eliminated all of the foods listed above from my diet, I have quit smoking which I believe is the most important TTC don’t anyway! Besides, I would never want to end up looking like Kate Moss (HA! In my dreams!) by not eating enough (who am I kidding?), I have decided to cut back on the junk food while TTC (and in reality, should continue long after) instead of giving it up all together and going insane. I admit I still drive through Starbuck’s every morning and get my black iced tea, but to justify it, I get a smaller size, and don’t always finish the whole drink. Also, I have not had sushi or tuna since I started trying in July (I miss it way more than I expected), and have eliminated all sugar substitutes (former Splenda addict), as well as Coke. Now I only consume the real deal sugar and caffeine free soda, which I try not to indulge in often. I have also decided that even with the “cutting back” I binge on way too much chocolate and junk food and feel that I need an intervention to stop! Ok, maybe not an intervention but I really need to learn to control myself better. Luckily I still have a few weeks before I start stims so I might go all health food next week and instead of taking an hour lunch at work to eat junk and gossip with co-workers, I will head into our gym and walk for 30 minutes.
So that is where I am at as of today. Trying to stay sane amidst my crazy personal life and our TTC journey. I know this will all be so worth it. And BTW, if anyone does read this, I would love to know what, if any, foods you gave up while TTC.