Round 1 didn’t work. Well it did…but not really. That was our first and last IUI.
Round 2 on the other hand…well, let’s just say we are pulling out all the stops, trying IVF and really hoping that this is it for us.
It better be, because I have a feeling my body will hate me after all these meds and might not cooperate out of spite. I found out at my RE appointment yesterday that I will be injecting more hormones in my body over the next two months then a bovine gets in a whole year leading up to their demise before heading to the meat-packing district. Seriously. There are three different medications I’ll be giving myself via multiple daily injections. But I am a trooper and will take it like a super hero. Who knows, I might even don a black cape each night while mixing my meds. Ha! That would scare my DH. Either way…..he should be scared – as I am quite confident over the next two months he will not be very happy with me. I have been reading up on the various IVF protocol medications and their side effects..needless to say that all of those women claimed they started acting like nothing short of the devil. I refuse to put my DH through any more mood swings than usual!
So now that I’m realizing there is so much to learn when starting IVF, I feel like I should have gone to college longer and perhaps acquired a degree of some sort. Yesterday the nurse gave me a calendar and a list of the bajillion meds and sent me on my way. After reading it, I was very confused and worried I would somehow screw this up. I truly feel had the paper work been presented in Chinese, I would have had better luck deciphering it. Luckily, I have a phone consult in a few weeks to go over the forms, protocol as well as any questions I might have, and trust me, I will have plenty of questions.
As of today I am on phase one…starting the BCP’s, which seems so backwards to me. Why is it that the only time in my entire life I have ever been on birth control, is when I am trying to get knocked up. Must be another cruel joke of TTC. In a few weeks, I will start the next step which is Lupron, then Follistim and Menapour. Throw in some prenatal’s, a Valium, and vaginal suppositories and there might be a party at my house soon!
Because I am gearing up to put my body through hell, my mind has started catching up on the reality of TCC and it’s becoming a drop off zone for irrational thoughts. It started this morning with, “What if I really do get pregnant?” and “OMG, how will I care for this child.” Crazy right? Talk about putting the cart before the horse. My DH said, “let’s just try to make the baby first, then we can figure out what to do with it.” Okay, I guess that is the plan, seems more rational than anything I was coming up with. I’m staying confident that my maternal instincts will kick in and help us figure out what to do.
Until then, I have my weekly acupuncture appointments to provide some stress relief and relaxation. Everything will be ok.